When thinking about what I wanted to say here about Reiki, my thoughts drifted back to the most powerful experience I had with receiving Reiki. It was in 1998 and I had just finished college, despite debilitating panic attacks and anxiety disorder. My anxiety got worse after graduating, and I was living with my mom, unable to work, and desperately in need of some healing but didn’t know where to start.
This was before the internet really had taken hold of things, so I couldn’t just google “healing for anxiety” or “help me I am a mess.” Though I avoided national newspapers and nightly news because it exacerbated my anxiety, I would occasionally look through local village newspapers to see what was happening around town.
In one of the local guides, I came across an ad for healing services offering “Reiki and Rubenfeld Synergy” which sounded like a start. Plus, I had that feeling you get, that little tickle of intuition that said, “yes.” So I called to make an appointment.
Soon, there I was, meeting with Pam Arwine, who worked out of her home. I returned to her almost weekly for healing sessions and to this day am comforted by how safe and nurtured I felt in that space. Her work was tuning me into my body, diffusing some tensions, and giving me clues as to why I felt so out of control and what my body was telling me. And over time, it helped immensely.
On one visit, as I was getting onto the table, I had a panic attack. She encouraged me to lay down on my back and she placed her hands over my sternum. And the panic completely melted away. Just dissolved and disappeared. Reiki instantly healed my panic attack.
I had never felt anything like that. It blew my mind.
My understanding of myself, my energy, and the healing energy available to us at any given moment was changed forever.